21 February 2019 in Writing

“Your emotional reactivity will get the best of you,” he counseled. This became a daily routine, the multi-vitamin of their relationship. On Monday: “Do you want to let your thoughts and emotions control you?” Then Tuesday: “Your suffering is yet another one of your imaginary narratives. If you can accept it as imaginary, then suffering shall cease.” By Friday: “Unless you want to suffer.” He said all these things with the same blank face he used to negotiate fees for his work, or to tell his mother he loved her at the end of a holiday visit. “You could try meditation and send your thoughts down a river.” He lobbied for passivity and corrected himself, “I mean, observe them flowing
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Four Autobiographies

21 February 2019 in Music, Writing

Three Spines

12 January 2019 in Writing

Office Christmas Party

4 January 2019 in Writing

I scan the crowded room for a piece of wood or foam noodle, anything to make a life raft and stay afloat amidst the din. I hear the Christmas music and appreciate it as if it is wallpaper, the farthest layer of sound in the small space, collaged over by pieces and fragments of voices and sound effects. Drinks line the bar, gorgeous jewels in glasses, before—clink, clank—they’re whisked away, smashed one to another, their saturated crystal mouths forced to kiss while the humans laugh. The smells of limes and lemons hover, observing everything like dust. Everyone talks at once, two over three, two over five, a trio in the west, the stars in the east. I hear bits of
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2019 and Starting Over Again

1 January 2019 in Writing

There seems to be some itch to be writing again, and I’ve decided to post first drafts and rough musings if for no other reason than no writer ever does that. And so, begin.

Literary Audio

29 December 2014 in Heather, Writing

In 2014, I tried my hand at audio journalism, editing several pieces on music and new media. Highlights included one-on-one interviews with impresarios, composers, and music directors: — A profile with Chris Rountree, artistic director of wildUp — Behind the scenes at REDCAT, including a post-performance interview with David Rosenboom — Looking back on Invisible Cities with Yuval Sharon, artistic director of The Industry — Contemplating astronomy, data visualization, and music composition at Pasadena’s AxS Festival These pieces reflect my passion for investigating the praxes of media arts on the West Coast.